Hopeful

My next ultra sound is exactly a week from today...I'll be almost 17 weeks and reallllllly hoping they can pick up if my little bean is a boy or girl. I know maybe I may not know the gender just yet- regardless def planning on booking a private gender scan at 22 weeks! With names …

Lonely

One thing I hate about not having the dad around is, I have no one to obsess over the baby and it's development with. I'm so crazy full of love and excitement and I just wish I had someone to share in all this joy and anticipation with me 😞 Yes of course, friends and …

Pregnancy is beautiful

Morning sickness creeped up in the middle of the afternoon. I threw up in toilet a ton and peed myself just a little while doing so. Fun times today really. Lol gosh I love this baby. I found myself just laughing after and saying hej to 👶🏼

In other news…

I cooked for the first time since, I believe April 17. Yes I remember because it was when him and I made dinner for his parents the night before they went on vacation. I mean I threw together little things here and there when he was gone but it was super minimal and mostly cereal …

Official 2nd trimester

So according to the last period calculation I am exactly 13 weeks today and have officially missed 3 periods. Wohoo! According to my 10 week sonogram though, I'm already a couple days into my 13 weeks. At this point I just want baby to be healthy and happy. My little bean is the only thing …

Ugh

I woke up kinda angry and him at life. Just angry and hurt and outa place. It's not even 630 yet, maybe I should just go back to bed.

No tears

Ok, officially 2230 and it's basically almost the end of the day. Not only did I survive yet another day.. first time since we broke up that I didn't shed a single tear. Progress. I know I'm not over him, but If this continues I know I'm def on the road to recovery, finally. In …

Small steps

Don't want to jinx it but it's currently 943 and I haven't cried yet💃🏽 Started meditating last night, and I think it's actually working. About to finally register for the doctor here today then when I'm back, think I'm guna do it again. P.S. I took off my engagement ring... completely and it's now back …

What is this purgatory

Dealing with the worst freaking headache allllllll day. Ugh. Also I feel so restless and not at ease. I've had mild outburst of crying where I felt like my heart was literally being broken into tiny pieces slowly. Was not fun. And this all day headache. Ugh

One week

It's been exactly a full week since I've been back. I feel proud I survived a week. It has def not been easy. Health wise I'm definitely better. Just having a bit of an issue sleeping these days since I can't find a comfortable sleeping position since my little bump popped. Haha I can't imagine …