It’s super rainy and cozy these past 2 days.
I woke up only twice last night. The 2nd time was at 5 and omg I was starving!!! Bean is definitely giving me an appetite at inappropriate times. Funny thing was, while the food was heating…I was super nauseous and swore I would throw up (I didn’t though).
While waiting for my food to digest before going back to bed, I couldn’t help but feel really sad that I had to be alone through all of this.
This week I’m closer to closure and acceptance that the dad may not be the man I thought he was.
Still, it doesn’t change the fact that I feel lonely sometimes. Not for anyone else, but for him.